I have a love-hate relationship with social media, and I wouldn’t normally advocate someone reaching out online for support, but I did earlier this year. So here I am I wanted to share my experience with you. I also want to use this blog to take the opportunity to say a BIG thank you to […]
Category: Having a word with me sen
It is the best feeling in the world to be able to look back and see just how far you have come.
I try not to dwell on the past for too long. Over the years, I have worked hard at paying attention to the present in preparation for whatever the future may hold. That was until it came to writing this bleeding book. A couple of times, I found myself struggling to piece together fragments of […]
The therapeutic act of writing
For years after Dad’s death, I would often dream of Dad. Unfortunately, most felt more like nightmares. The most common one was that he was alive, but I could never work out how? The memories of his burial would be clear as day in my mind, stood by his grave, throwing in a single red […]
COVID one year on
Facebook had just asked me – What’s on your mind, so i had a think about it… As I flicked through my memories, I realise such much has changed Its been a long xxcking year and yet, i’m still here Only eight years ago, Sheffield was covered in snow The year before I […]
Connecting the Dots: Everything happens for a reason.
Today is a particularly poignant day. It is precisely 16 years since Dad took his last breath. I remember the day as if it was yesterday. Me and my sister found him on the living room floor in his flat, and despite looking like shit, he was in a positive mood. He reached out his […]
Writing it out
There have been some days over the past year; I have had to have some serious Words Wi Me Sen to adjust with this shit show called COVID. Confined to home working, being isolated from the usual office/social chat and banter has been replaced with more time to think or, should I say, overthink. I […]
Hormones and the cycle of change – Part of a woman’s recovery that’s rarely talked about
Most people in recovery have heard Prochaska and DiClemente’s Stages of Change, but what about the monthly cycle. I have spoken to many women whose periods stopped during their using but came back with a vengeance when they started their recovery journey. “I mean as if us women don’t have enough emotional shit to deal […]
If life was a cake, what would you be?
On the inside I would be made up of colourful layers, laced with buttercream and covered in marzipan and a royal icing layer. We aren’t born anxious, scared or consumed with self-doubt, this is learned behaviour, reactions to past traumatic events. The ingredients in my cake contain acts, and scenarios that have festered in […]
Letting go of Anger…
Haruki Murakami was quoted as saying that “once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive…But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in” This quote resonates with me, but what Haruki doesn’t mention […]
What was your Shirley Moment?
I watched Shirley valentine over Christmas; it was a welcome distraction from the boredom that comes in between Christmas Day and New Year, I laughed at her talking to the wall because I realised that used to me! I’ve always questioned everything; even as a kid, although I rarely voiced any of it because it […]
